Remember the last time you had the flu and you were leaning over the toilet? That’s perfect concentration, meditation on one specific point: Please make it stop. Nothing distracts you or diminishes the power behind the one obsession you hold sacred. Let that be the last time. Make me well.
When you’re handed a death sentence by doctors who want to make you comfortable, that same attention comes into play. All you can think of is, Noooo! This is not my life. This is not happening. I am not ready to die. Or as a bright, young Christian speaker said, “Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to go right now.”
“Please, come pray for me. I’m dying.” I grabbed my minister’s hand between services two days after my biopsy, and we prayed for wisdom and faith, for the doctors to be wrong, for the cancer not to be so determined to live, snuffing out my life in the process. “Why God? Why me? Why now? Why aggressive, rare, and systemic?”
Living with the fear of dying mandates laser focus of both intention and attention. Loving and worshipping God and serving others requires that same focus, yet too often we drift toward chaos and distraction, away from peace and a simple life of obedience. God calls us back, faithfully.
Thankfully, a friend came over to pray and speak hope over me. “I don’t think the way you think. The way you work isn’t the way I work. God’s Decree. For as the sky soars high above earth, so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think is beyond the way you think” (Isaiah 55:8- 9, The Message). “Forget the question why, Julia. Focus on healing and wholeness. I declare the light of God falling over you and sustaining you with his Holy Spirit.”
Ask others to pray also, but only if they can hold you healed and well. I did this and so much more, and was nurtured by the Holy Spirit. You can be, too. This book details some practices that facilitate returning attention to God, to the power, grace, and mercy of the Trinity. To the healing flow of His everlasting love.I hope it helps you dance with the divine, and that light courses through you as you read these words, bringing you to completeness.